There are moments in which life, existence, puts you in front of traumatizing and frightening experiences in front of which you are almost always unprepared and each of you reacts in the way that is proper and possible.
As I have heard from you, it is also possible to perceive oneself as inside a black hole and to find oneself on an isolated shore, in an irreducible solitude in which it seems that nothing can serve to distract from the drama that is being experienced.
This is one of the many ways of reacting to the dramatic experience, but io I would like you to ask yourself for a moment why this can happen and why this inner reaction develops when, in reality, all of you are part of the same being and you could feel close to others, and therefore receive from them what you need in that moment, and not find yourself annihilated by isolation and loneliness even in the most difficult and darkest situation of your existence.
The answer, for those who know the Teaching broadly, is simple enough to be given: it is obvious that when the dramatic situation occurs, especially if unexpected, this lacerating situation is the indicator of something that will transform your life from that moment on, and that sense of blockage, loneliness and isolation in which nothing seems to help, is nothing but the reaction of fear of the ego that is faced with something unknown that seems to escape any type of control, possibility of mediation and management.
If you think about it, you who at times have found yourself in these rather sad conditions, you will realize that then, little by little, however it may be, you have come out of those situations in which you found yourself thanks to small gestures, small words. , with small understandings, and your ego has begun to regain control of the situation, has therefore begun to live again and no longer feel paralyzed and isolated, but existing within the world and in search of a solution that would at least partially alleviate the drama he was experiencing.
I want to invite you to meditate on what can be the causes for certain of your reactions, certain ways of being that leave you disoriented and also, sometimes, frightened and on the fact that, however and always, within you there is the urge to fight, to grow, to hope and to live, facing what existence has prepared for you. Rodolfo
Thank you.
Personal experience confirms these words, thank you.
On the last sentence, that anyway and always, I don't know.
I have experienced seasons of life in which that drive is strong and when lived it leaves room for a season in which it is absent. Then it will come back and fade on another front.
It is that 'anyway and always' that underlines a constant unidirectional, a continuous tension or inhale that does not return to me, as if there was never an exhalation.
Then on what existence has prepared for us there is little to do, it is ours and we have to work it.
thank you
Very clear and experienced, I feel like saying something that belongs to the past… ..but I could also be wrong.
This uncertainty still denotes the way to go.
thank you
Undoubtedly there is a readjustment of the ego to find a new balance based on the elements it is forced to change as a result of its impact with experience. It is a process that takes place continuously, even if many times we do not even realize it because, perhaps, it only concerns the nuances of understanding that are reached.
I cannot think of this event in terms of the power of the ego ... the ego is illusory and the power it possesses is also illusory, so once the new equilibrium is reached, the ego will again delude itself that it has also restored its dominance on reality while, in the end, it is always reality that has a greater and more concrete power over the ego itself.
I think that that "anyway and always" is addressed to the thrust of the conscience which is in any case unidirectional, which also underlies the fact that in the end we get what we are ready to face.
The self in check seems to me a description that coincides with my experience of suffering, at least to a large extent. It is not clear to me the transition from the loss of initial control to a new equilibrium that perhaps involves another type of control. So a readjustment of the ego, a loss in power?
A weakening of identification and emotional / cognitive fibrillation and an emergence of deeper forces: "within you there is the urge to fight, to grow, to hope and to live, facing what existence has prepared for you"
Yes Sandra is right what you say!
Of course, shifting the focus from the problem to the reaction to the problem is already a first step.