What is this fear that you have all the time? Think for a moment about the journey of the individual: the individual comes to light, is born with already his little sketch ofIo, with his physical ego already in turmoil and fear, immediately!
It is perhaps the first sensation, the first emotion that the ego feels in its existence in the physical world: fear. The fear of having left a safe and secure place to find yourself in something completely and obscenely different.
So what does it do? He looks around (but most of the time he doesn't see) he can't understand what's happening, because his mental body is not yet able to make him understand reality; his sensations are muffled, a bit as if he were still in his mother's womb, but at the same time he is also tormented by these stimuli of lights, of words, which he feels reverberating on his own body; that physique which, at the same time, shakes in a somewhat convulsive way and has a series of mechanisms inside it which disturb it enormously; and all this what does he do? He scares him! Then what does he do? He cries and screams.
As you can see, therefore, fear is the starting point of your whole existence; but, who knows, maybe it's the constant, one of the few constants in your life? Have you ever thought about that, creatures? How important has the sensation of «fear of living»? You go to school and you are afraid of being questioned… Why do you have to be afraid? What can happen to you?
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D – To have a bad grade.
But if you did what you had to do, the grade will never be bad; so fear is just a sense of guilt, is it just a way to mask one's own inefficiency, one's inability to do what the individual has been asked to do?
Could be; it could be a guess. However, it can't be that simple. The newborn starts screaming because he is afraid of not getting anything to eat (they cut his pipes, of course!) And he will continue to cry, scream, be afraid until he receives his milk. It can't be the same situation as the little boy who is afraid of the interrogation. He can't yet have feelings of guilt, the newborn child, yet the fear is there and continues to be there.
The person falls in love, falls in love with another person and the moment comes when, in most cases, one begins to think about whether it is not the case to unite two destinies, and even here fear arrives. How do you justify this fear?
Fear of the ego of being inadequate to the situation that will arise. Ego fear of losing what he thinks he has. Fear of the ego of having to change its image…
Going still further, we arrive at the culmination of the existence of the individual, at the moment at the antipodes of that of birth, and here approaches the moment of abandonment of the physical plane and, once again, here comes the fear, for everyone; don't believe anyone who says "I'm not afraid to die" because it's not true! Of course, one can also convince himself that this is the case; however, usually, he is convinced until he knows that he is not dying! The moment it begins to feel, sensing that perhaps the moment is closer than he thought, here is the lump in the stomach, the tension and the fear! Fear of what?
D – Physical pain. Maybe there's nothing there. The fear of facing the unknown. To leave what you know.
You see, all these answers that you have given are all true. This, if you think about it - based on this brief excursus we made, which could have been much more complicated but it didn't seem the case - shows you how fear, in reality, throughout the individual's life is increasingly fractionated and becoming more and more complex with the addition of new elements, to the point that – as you yourself demonstrated a moment ago – when, having reached the end of life, fear is no longer an element or two elements, but an enormous set of elements that leads to conditioning the ego to have these fears.
You haven't put the feelings of guilt, the sense of inadequacy with respect to the new experience that you are about to live, you haven't put the fear of not having completed one's tasks in life, the fear of leaving back all that with difficulty has accumulated over the years ... So, what can be the most common element of fear?
'Fear is mainly based on desire'
The most common thing about fear is that it is mainly based on desire. Your fears, in all your stages of life, all arise from the impression of not being able to please, a fulfill wishes that come your way from time to time in your life.
The newborn wants food and is afraid of not receiving it, the boy wants to be able to prove himself to the environment he frequents and is afraid of not succeeding; the lover wishes to achieve a true love relationship with the other individual, but realizes that it will be difficult, tiring and certainly not sure of reaching a successful conclusion; and the individual on his deathbed would like to be able to remedy all the mistakes that he has realized over time that he has committed and for which he no longer has time - he believes - to be able to remedy.
As you see, then, the common ground of fear is precisely this grounding of desire; on the other hand, desire, as you know, was also pointed out by the Buddha as one of the elements, if not the main one, for which one should work to be able to arrive at that blessed "enlightenment" that everyone would like, even if you don't know what it is. And you creatures, do you wish? How much of your life, of your living life, is governed by your desires?
How much of your action is sincere and how much, in reality, is only an attempt to satisfy a desire, licit or illicit? How sincere do you want to be with yourself? And who's stopping you from doing it?
If you would like to be be honest with yourself, it's a bit like if you want to change your life: if you want to be honest with yourself, be honest with yourself! If you're not being honest with yourself, it's because you really don't want to be! Why don't you wish to be?
Why you cannot accept yourself!
If you were able to accept yourself, your life would be different, your desires would be different, your fears would be different, because you would no longer need and drive to prove anything to yourself or to others; you would already know what you can and cannot do.
D – But we are never sure of ourselves, of understanding each other, of being aware of who we really are.
And then, when one does not have self-confidence or awareness of understanding who one really is, the only possibility left for this poor individual incarnated on the physical plane is none other than to live, is to run towards life, without being afraid to maybe make a facade because life has suddenly stopped for some reason; and, living, yes «he understands», one becomes «aware» and, as a crowning glory, yes «It includes»; so that the consciousness of each individual gradually receives all those small data that make it more and more organic, more complex, to the point of creating within the individual a full understanding of what the individual himself is in the course of of that life.
Get to understand what you are it means coming to accept yourself, and coming to accept yourself does not mean, however, simply saying: "I am selfish" or "I am a good person"; too easy!
Even the ego can play this game; indeed, he does it very easily, it is enough to hear each other when you speak: «Ah, I did this to make room for the others, this time I'm not coming!». Ah, how great you feel at that moment, how important you are, how selfless you are! But is it really like this or, perhaps, was there some other, less important, less altruistic reason that was hidden behind this fake altruism?
'Self observation
What you have to do is watch yourself, and we come back to the usual self-observation, where you have to:
– observe yourself without using the mind,
– look at you without knowing what you are looking at and, above all,
– do absolutely nothing!
I know I'm asking you something that seems impossible to you, yet, you see: when we give you this teaching so difficult and vague for all of you, you don't realize that the mere fact of thinking about this technique - let's call it technique, even if the term is improper – it causes within you, within you, in your vibrations, such resonances that predispose your vibrations to allow this thing to happen more and more easily, always with greater fluidity; therefore, even if you do not rationally understand what you have to do, rest assured that there is something about yourself that understands and that, in any case, acts. Scifo
Man is a desiring animal, Schopenhauer stated, and he had no place in this, even though he should have said that “the Ego is the desiring animal”.
But this isn't the problem either, because desires are in a certain sense needs for understanding of consciousness, they are what is not understood by the consciousness that tries to become understanding.
This is why the Guides suggest that we should do nothing but observe the dynamics of identity with the awareness of consciousness itself, remaining as neutral as possible, not identified with them.